July 2nd 1860 Started from Florence for G.S.L. City in a company of some 40 wagons under the charge of Capt. Jessie Murphey and arrived on the 13th of September all well and in general after a very prosperous and pleasant Journey. [fn68]
September 1860Busy Salt Lake City street ca. 1860.
Sep. 24. Began work for Joseph Elder and continued untill Nov. 30th. [fn69]
Dec 1 commenced to work at my home in the 12th Ward on my own. Got some logs from Bro. Thos. Lyon to start with.
Jan 29th 1861. Ordained a member of the 17th Quorum of Seventies at the residence of Bro. Hyrum B. Clawson (by Pres. Tibbets.)
Aug 24th 1861. Opened shop on East Temple St. owned by Wm Howard at 10 dollars per month.
Apr 1861. Bought a house & half city lot of John Edwards in the 11th Ward Price $200 with one year to pay it in. [fn70]
Moved into the 11th Ward in Nov. 1861. [fn71]
Feb 2. My dear wife was delivered of a fine boy for which I felt to thank the Lord for blessing me with a son to perpetuated my name.
Feb 8. I had the heart rendring misfortune to loose my beloved wife from the time of her confinement she had not done as well as usual altho I had no fears of death untill 2 or 3 hours before her decease. I feel it a severe loss & shall continue to do so untill I join her in the spirit world. She was a faithful & a good wife and a kind and attentive mother to her children. She was interred in the 10th inst. The Bros. & Sis were very kind to me in my misfortune. [fn73]
March 15th 1862. Was blessed with the privlige of my endowments in the house of the Lord and was married to Sarah Rogers (who had been keeping house one week). She stood a Proxey & was sealed to me for my dear wife & I stood for her husband who was also dead.
The Burial of Sir John Moore Not a drum was heard not a funeral not As his corps to the ramparts we hurried Not a soldier discharged his farewell shot Over the grave where our hero we buried We buried him darkly at dead of night The sod with our baynots turning By the struggling moonbeams misty light And the lantern dimly burning No useless coffin confined his breast Nor in street or shroud we bound him But he lay like a warrier taking his rest With his Martial cloak around him Few and short were the prayers we said And we spoke not a owrd of sorrow But we steadfastly gazed on the face of the dead And better by thot of the morrow We thot as we haped his narrow bed And smoothed down his lonely pillow That the foe & stranger would trod on his head And we far away on the billow Lightly they'l talke of the spirit thats gone And ore his cold ashes upbraid him But nothing he'll wreck if they let him sley on In the Grave there the Britan hath laid him But half our heavy task was done When the clock told the hour for retiring And we heard by the distant & random gun That the foe was solomly firing Slowly & sadly we laid him down From his fame fresh and gory We carved not a line we raised ont a stone But left him alone in his glory Ann C. Clarkson Tho you leave me now in sorrow Smiles my light our love to morrow Doned to part my faithful heart A gleam of joy from hope shal borrow Ah nere forget when friends are near Their heart alone is thine forever Thou mayes find those that will love thee dear But not a love like mine no never. Ann C. Clarkson The Pilit Oh pilit tis a fearful night Theres danger in the deep I'll come and pace the deck with thee I do not dare to sleep. Go down the sailor cried, go down, This is no place for thee. Fear not but trust in Providence Where ever thou mayest be. Oh pilit dangers often meet We all are apt to slight And thou hast known these raging waves But to subdue their might It is not Apathy he cried That gives this strength to me Fear not but trust in providence Wherever thou mayest be. On such a night the sea engulfed My fathers lifeless form My only brothers boat went down In just so wild a storm And such perhaps may be my fate But still I say to thee Fear not but trust in providence Where ever thou mayest be. Ann C. Clarkson Row swiftly time flies on a pace The resent moment like a race Glides wift away And ere unhee. Ann C. Clarkson Tis sad to leave your fatherland And friends you love there well To wander on a stranger stand Where friends but seldom dwell Yet hard as are such ills to bear Their pangs are slight to those who are The orphans of the heart. Ann C. Clarkson A large heart expands the chest Beward of evil doers for their paths lead to death.
February 19 - 1863. Since the last date I have neglected to keep a correct acct. of or record of events, but I shall again try to connect them together so as to make them understood.
The peices of poetry etc. that here intervenes in the writings of my dear wife for shoes sake I allow them to remain in this book.
I soon here began to experience a serious change in the affairs of my household, The woman whom I had now married proved to be very different to the one I had enjoyed so many happy seasons with. She soon began to show maked signs of disrespect to me untill it became unbearable, nor can I attribute any cause for it what ever unless it be that I continued to lament and grieve for her severe loss, And she thus became jealous of a woman not in the flesh. In no wise did I control her, or oppose her in any of her wishes as far as I could gratify them to make her comfortable.
I must here also notice that she had a daughter by her former husband named Julia about 7 years of age. A spoiled child as all else who knew her testified.
On two occasions I sought to influence her to have the child obey her and become more governable as it was setting a bad example to my children who were younger. On each occasion whe gave me the most disrepectfull replies, and gave me to understand I should have nothing to do with her, that she should take her own course.
I must here add on the night my beloved wife died, I went a distance of several blocks, It was a bitter cold and frosty night, and in my anguish of mind, fogot to put on my usual amount of clothing and caught a severe cold.
I was now bereft of the kind attentions of a loving wife, two of my children viz. Ruth and Ida Claressa were at Bro. John Forbes, and my baby boy was at my sisters, I thus had to go around to see to their wants. Where I had sat comfortable by the fire in the evening, I now went incessantly backward and foreward, in the worst weather of the season.
My desease became agravated and my health to decline to counter act this and have my children once more established at home was the reason I again married so soon. But instead of having the desired effect the opposite was the result.
When therefor this new trouble arose my mind was more than ever distressed and my bodily strength began more and more to fail. Untill on the 14th of May I was attacked with bleeding from the lungs. I remonstrated with her, on the course she was pursuing, and told her she was to a great extent causing my present sickness, at which I received the most derisive and insulting epethips in return. When induring these fits of excitement my lungs would discharge large quantities of blood, and when she saw that her doings really had the effect I described she increased her efforts to produce them by the most provoking language and actions. Nor would she afford to assist on me the least assistance or relief. Amongst her ailings she told me repeatadly to get some one else to take care of my children & she would go amongst her friends and leave me.
Seeing that I could not possibly bears such a coarse of treatment having all regulation and order broken up in my home, a bad example before my children, unless they should grow up in and become pertakers of the same spirit I resolved to take her at her word.
I there for repaired to my sister and her husband Bro. & Sis Lark on attempting to communicate my wish my feeling so overcome me I burst into tears, nor could I for some time restrain them, I felt so cast down with sorrow and anguish of soul. I told them my circumstances this being the first time I had said any thing to them about my difficulty. I asked them to take my children and care for them untill I had made other arrangements.
On the following day they came to my house with the intentions of taking my little ones home with her. I at once gave them into the charge of my sister. When she flatly denied all the abussive scorn she had been pilling upon me, but finally said she would go if I would give her a divorce, to which I agreed.
But no sooner did I seek to grant her, even her most extravagant desires than she refused to receive them, and said she would not go, but wanted me to take my children away and leave her to enjoy my house & little comforts of home, for which I had toiled & struggled for years in connection with a true and faithful wife, to accumulate, to divest my self of all and leave her, an acquaintance of two months to enjoy it. This was more than I could do, and therefor requested her to leave.
The authorities of the ward were next called in (viz. Bishop Elick McCray and Wm A. McMaster & John Calvin his counsler) by this time I was taken down to my bed, and so ill that I began to think as also did my friends, that I should not recover.
Yet with all she still continued to harass my mind with her contentions, and I intreating here all the time to let me have peace, which was all I desired. The breathern above named investigated the case on both sides and decided that she should take her effects and go else where. As I would not agree to be reconciled to here with such a spirit as she manifested. Had she manifested but a respectable share of intrest for me and mine I would have been happy and would have had her stay. But to continue in strife like that I would sooner prefere death and the silent grave. She accordingly left on the 21st of May 1862 and her effects were removed on the 11th day of June consisting of cloths chest, bed &c.
There are other items of mention which I do not deen it necessary to write. It is with sorrow that I have this to pen, but I do it as a duty which I owe to my posterity. For three or weeks my sister remained with me attending for my little ones and nursing and caring for me.
When this annoying and contending woman had left and I had peace and kind attention, I began to regain my health again tho very slow. [fn75]